Catharsis

30th March

Do people see shrinks because they feel bad about being mean to their folks? I don't know why i snap so very often at my parents. Even when they are being such nice beings! Of course self reflection is no reflection if there is no revelation. I thought about it and i think i do know and can understand why I am reacting in such a way but that is just no excuse to be mean.. And at times it is just ugly and nasty things that happened in the day making me all grumpy and belligerent. I feel that this must come to a stop. 1 nasty person makes 2 and 2 makes 4.. this negativity just spreads. It should not! My resolution is to halt all these bad air from circulating. Whatever bad thing that comes to me just stops at me. No chance am I gonna spoil someone else's day. To be a better man. Stop unhappiness.

27th March

Just had a company movie screening organised by Chief himself. Brilliant documentary by none other than Presidential Elect Mr. Al Gore himself - "An Inconvenient Truth". I never knew much about Mr. Al Gore but this film has definitely shaped the way I look at him now. A visionary indeed. And it's exactly these people whom we need to drive home messages and values of a "larger than life" scale. The only gripe I have is probably the many instances in the film where you could detect traces of his wistful disappoint/indignity that he had lost the election. But not too much that it was distasteful but not too relevant either.. probably other than the obvious fact that if he has been crowned he could probably push for more to be done to save our Earth. Shocking that USA is not in the Kyoto Treaty! Through this film one gets a wholistic view and understanding of the problem. It was gratifying (for me at least) to see how our environmental issues are closely intertwined with consumerism, health, fraudulent claims of scientific studies, oil and petroleum industry, the Insurance companies, politics, multinational ties and nuclear power capabilities. And what was sweet for me was that he made the message very personal as well..bringing up stories of his loved ones.. the farm that he grew up in which has now long lost its glory.. of how his dad quit growing tobacco after an epiphany (of sorts). I recommend everyone to watch this documentary.

After the movie I proceeded to the library to digest what I had learnt about global warming and apropos, i read about the family whose endeavour to be self-sufficient encapsulates the true meaning of being environmentally conscious. Check this out! Their homestead project is awesome!

And for those who want to have a go at interior-designing their own homes, there's a cool program you can download from ikea.

26th March

WHat has my life morphed into now? http://www.pathtofreedom.com/about/urbanhomestead.shtml Endless consult for patients? Paper pusher for the Navy? Undecided hopefully not disillusioned doctor? Investment Guru wanna be? Can someone please tell me what's the best investment now in this time of recession. Argh plagued with the neither here nor there feeling. You know what I mean? And looking at people's holiday photos on Facebook is just drilling the travel bug into me and churning up a whole load of "wanderdust".

I've finally gotten my Tag specs!! Yeah. Used to have the wrong mindset about making better lenses for the better frames which i only wear when I go out, and making do with cheap lousy lenses for the pair of glasses I use everyday. Makes no sense at all.

Been so busy I have not been watching any new movies recently.. Love those times when I could spend the whole day just glued to the computer screen watching movies from my Portable HD all day long.. Gives you new insight fresh perspectives..Speaking of which, will be watching an inconvenient truth tomorrow. The whole bunch of Navy guys at Jubilee

18th March

The last hour has been absolutely quiet! Unbelievable.. Anyway to sum up the whole wuxia addiction..I think it is just plain SAD to be addicted to and to believe in mere nothingness. Well at first I thought it had to mean something..at least something! Some moral lessons some hidden brilliance or revelation for the weary modern day citizen but nope. It is but pure day dreaming. An illusion. Sad to believe in something that doesn't exist...

IN contrast, the last words from one who has left our world bears a lot more weight and often induces a lot more thought than anything. Death is significant. I am still reeling from shock at the unexpected death of one of my seniors Dr. Allan Ooi. Even more stupefied after reading his last email to the world, written just before he plunged to his death. In it were many stinging remarks at the SAF. I'm still not sure what to think.. Nonetheless, is this the best way to deal with the inevitable? Doesn't the human mind and soul draw on more resources and reserves to plow through such situations/circumstances in life? Is the SAF ther system really that powerful?

Been addicted and hooked to Xiao Ao Jiang Hu. Wuxia xiao shuo offers a world of escapism for me. It represents an ideal world where the rules of living are simple and straightforward and where politics are reduced to the very minimum. It offers great freedom to the imprisoned modern citizen.

20th Feb

Unbelievable but I am back!;) after a what..1 year hiatus from blogging??