26 March

I am overwhlemed by the sudden reduction in the finite volume of my room. Even more overwhelmed by some numbers, numbers on little notes called receipts stashed like turkey stuffings in my wallet. Hai, i need to take a break from spending.

1 March

Rain check

"Rain rain go away.. come again another day.. little children wanna play... "

Yeah I'm like sitting here and staring out of the window at the f%^&ing rain. LITTLE CHILDREN WANNA PLAY!! Such a rare weekend when I am not on call and do not have to go in for rounds, and the weather has to spoil my flying plans.

And boating plans! Boating is kinda difficult tho.. Punggol park aint exactly near.. I so wanna live in Sentosa Cove where 'balcony meets water...' Ahhh...

Speaking of which..evil J and I decided we would drop in on someone but really we were just out on a lil detective work of our own. The extent which people would go to, to impress... <evil grin>

Once in a long while.. you come across/uncover a genius. A brilliant shining star who just throws you off with superb acting and awesome personlaity. Ellen Page. She's da BOMB man! First noticed her in Hard Candy. Now Juno... I think the role was made for her. I guess I can't use the word precocious on her, do you know she's 21?! Yes but anyways, there's something about precocious teenagers that draws me. I guess it's definitely more likeable than childish adults.

Received an sms that night.. I was lying in bed all groggy and ready to sleep. Just doing a routine check of sms before switching off the phone. There it was. I stared at it for what seemed to be a long time. I'm not sure what I felt then. Well I think I'm supposed to feel elated, overjoyed but I think I felt more of a sense of duty and responsibility. Hmm in a way it's akin to how Bleeker likely felt when told that his one night stand with Juno er bore fruit. Like suppose to be excited but more scared. Yeah. So in essence I think I should start behaving more like an adult. Start being more serious with work, learn to take the reins of my destiny into my own hands.

Yeah!

 

20 Feb

Fixing up my wrecks at home and seeing them fly again is quite an experience. I like the repair work. What materials to use what kind of wooden sticks bend more, how to make things align in order. It's pretty simple once u have the concept of what is good and what isn't. What is strong and what isn't, combined with what looks gd and what doesn't, i think u are halfway there. Heh...

 

If only fixing wrecked hearts and weeping wounds would be so easy......................

 

Ah..morbid.

 

16 Feb

Crazy dream last night...

Dreamt of my wedding day. Was rushing for the dinner and realised I seemed to not have done the morning pick up the bride tea ceremony thingie. And somewhere along the way I realised I haven't even gotten the wedding ring proposal ring or watever ring. And realised I don't have my red leather shoes. As you've already realised by now, I was basically just panicking throughout the dream...

Hai perhaps you readers out there are already quite familiar with the very popular boyfriend-or-husband concept which alot of girls subscribe to. Is it also applicable to girls? As in gf-or-wife? Or am I the first guy to view it this way (Of cos not). Perplexing issue... Either way it's just too bad...

Ever since the edison sex scandal broke out, I've been having a lot of speculations. All of a sudden I've turned into this sceptical person who draws ludicrous links between rich people, people in seemingly ex cars, young guys driving seemingly ex cars, celebs, local stars, Fan Wong, anyone with a video/camera phone and nude pictures. Things are happening folks, it's just whether we choose to believe it or not.

If there's anything that RC hobby has taught me, it has to be -- PERSEVERANCE. It's really a never ending cycle of flying- crashing-fixing-flying better- having less crashes- fixing less etc..

I should turn to more relaxing hobbies like...watching people fly. Ha. Anyway peeps! Let y'all in on a lil piece of news -- I'll be rekindling my r/ship with marine fishes! Soon. Akan datang

 

12 Feb

Steps in RC boating

1. balloon waterproof receiver - 3 layers, hosp towelettes sandwiched in between, cable tie outlet and silicone it

2. parafilm motor esc connection

3. parafilm esc and silicon waterproof 2 ends

4. test water jacket system with syringe from hosp

5. daiso tape

6. sponge at sides

7. 3 cell batt

 

 

10 Feb

A student nurse walked up to me that day and asked me, " Doesn't it affect you when someone dies?"

I looked into her eyes.. Those innocent eyes that led to a young pure heart, truthful, genuine, loving of the world...

For a moment, I knew not what to say. As I pictured Mr. C lying at bed 44, a case of endstage idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis, literally fighting to breathe..struggling to stay on the side of consciousness, i searched the deepest recesses of my soul. What do I exactly feel? How can I go on thinking nothing is out of the ordinary? What exactly was going through my mind as I flipped through the case notes a few moments ago just to make sure the "Do Not Resuscitate" form had been signed.

And then I had a visual flashback to 3 years back when I was still a year 3 med student getting all excited and fired up for my first ambulance run. Which led me to a death case. A young mother had apparently passed on in her bedroom. Her sickly face unyielding to the cries of her young child. That was the face of DEATH. We spoke to the father after pronouncing her dead. I found myself tearing, sad at the fragility of life, and the cold hard fact of the lack thereof. My paramedic caught me, sounded me out. She said she had gone through what I had felt too. But that is about it. You don't let it affect you. You don't mope over what cannot be done. It would be too taxing if we do not draw ourselves away from the emotional side of it. Stay on the medical end. Stay professional. That was the lesson I learnt. Not easy but it's what is best.

Isn't it..?

 

 

 

5 Feb

So assuming i bathe everyday, I prob would have somethnig to blog about everyday huh...ha.

Night out at Dempsey road proved to be a windfall of gossips! Ok I exaggerate as usual but definitely one or 2 big ones. (Excluding the shotgun)

Hearing stories of how awry Tis and Jef's grad trip went makes mine seem so blissful and enjoyable. Little gripes here and there but definitely beats having a couple amongst the group quarreling all day long and just shortcircuiting the group dynamics. What an odd couple this D and E must be! Just another example of how we can never understand..LOVE.

And secretly very amused that peers do think having 20K in bank is damn big deal and makes one RICH! Is everyone just pretending when they are actually secretly amassing their own personal fortune?! Tsk tsk.

Pic treat for everyone!

May I introduce Miss Budweiser. This is actually a scale model of the real Miss Budweiser power hydroboat.

The heart of the power system HXT 28-45 3600kv Brushless Inrunner

30 Jan

I can't stand how my blog entries keep getting lost.

30 Jan that was to be 24 and 21 st Jan? (I think..)

Yes and so even though my rather regular blogging habit seems futile and deja vu/ecrite/ecoute whatever I will still spend the good last few moments of my precious non working weekday night blgging. I believe it helps in setting my thoughts straight. (Hmm why does that statement sound queer..)

I wonder if everyone vascillates between wanting to show their blog to everyone in the world, and being totally paraniod about who is reading and wanting to keep the prying eyes of everyone out of their blog. I do.

I am at the brink of changing the title of my blog. I believe everyone has a personal best time of the day or place where they are most in touch with themself. When they actually swirl around in their subconscious and review evaluate what has happened recently or in the day. A time when they may even start talking to themselves.

Besides the abundance of negative ions that a shower endows me, it also happens to be my daily sanctuary where and when I engage in a truthful sincere monologue with MOI. Now before I start sounding like a lunatic, I would like to make known my stand...

Talking to oneself is PERFECTLY normal.

May I even add, healthy. It's like being your own Shrink. Only it's free and probably more insightful. Nothing works better than the reconciliation of the conscious and the subconscious. Yes anyway I love the time I have when I shower and it's almost like I am blogging amidst all that steam and hot water. Problem is I can't recall most of my thoughts the minute I step out of the shower, except probably for the fact that once again I have used my sis' shampoo instead of buying my own.

What's the deal about Deal or No Deal? Seriously. It's definitely the dumbest game show I have come across. One of those where u probably can leave yr brain at home and go for it. And I absolutely abhor how the crowd is so patronising and mindlessly chanting "no deal no deal no deal..." Sheesh.

I once thought I was a natural when it comes to designing and engineering. This is despite not having "Design and Construction" as a module in secondary school when all technical stream students had a chance to meddle with tools and be creative! Sucks yes but heck I had fun with calligraphy anyways. So moral of the story is...

Having a good hull is half the battle won...

No wonder those seemingly simple boat hulls cost so much. Just the hulls alone. So my airboat has not become faster. There is a flaw in the design!!!! Hmm have yet to disclose this erroneous error to partner in "design and construction". But nonetheless I love the physics behind it. I should totally be part of Gordon's team at DSTA.

What happens when yr boss thinks highly of you but you have absolutely no intention of shining or sweatin' it out.. Hai wu nai. I just need to get past this posting in one piece that's all.

Lots of weddings! Ok exaggerating. But EJ wedding was COOL. I like alot of things about it.. from the moment I walked into Shangri La late and bumping into the groom decked in white suit and shoes looking nonchalant and actually remembering his HO not too long ago. Grand wedding I must say, in every way from the profile of the invited, to the number of tables and souvenirs. (Shangri-La is not known for it's food is it?) Also met Ex boss' gf/fiancee who instantly reminded of shu qi in "My wife is a Mafia". She made me drink my full glass of red wine in a shot and then proceeded to fill same wine glass with VSOP. You see there is the quiet drunk and drunk drunk. I belong to the former. Sober but not quite there. It was scary cos never encountered such a lethal dose to my liver in a span of a minute before. But it was an interesting experience. Orthopods haha..and their wives!! Shake head..

 

There is this ticking.. incessant ticking..slow..regular..threatening..irritating.

There is this ticking..from a time bomb..somewhere. Only, I need to find it..

 

17 Jan 2008

Had lots of thrill downloading dubious but seemingly awesome programs onto my handheld. I particularly like the "Acupuncture for hangovers" heh heh..

Went to James' blog randomly today after not visiting for so long and realised/got reminded that this guy really loves Japanese culture as evident from the numerous trips he has made to Japan. What's nice is the abundance of pictures he uses to complement his short and succinct writings. Definitely one of my favourite travel blogs. Unlike a certain other person, his writings do not sound like ramblings that come from an insecure and may I add lonely person. (Yes detectable) I shall not give names..

Locktite doesn't really locktight. Well at least it doesnt lock it tight enough. Plane engine still came loose. One of these days the guys living it up in the HDBs just round the corner are gonna complain of a certain "threat" to their peaceful abode. Heh..

 

16 Jan 2008

By a stroke of luck I am back haha.

Not that I think people still check on my blog. In fact I prefer to think they aren't anymore.

2008 will be great!!! Yeah.

A little too late for psyching myself up??